Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Encounters in Dreams & I Can Only Imagine

May 5, 2010

Another dream

I had another dream with Daniel alive in again last night.  The context was weird:  a golf tournament with a variety of acquaintances playing.  Daniel was in the foursome ahead of me, but we ended up hanging out together at some point, seated next to each other with other participants around a table. 

I was totally focused on him, observing carefully how he looked, his face, hair, etc.  He looked just like he did when he went off to college – same hairstyle, glasses, Peruvian winter hat, and dark blue nylon jacket that he always wore.  But his facial features, especially his nose, still looked like it did when he was a toddler. 

As we chatted about nothing in particular, the last thing I remember is grabbing him around his shoulders, embracing him, and burying my face in his neck and sobbing.  In my dream I also seemed to be aware that this encounter was a gift and was temporary since he had already died.

May 13, 2010

I can only imagine

Since the day I heard this song recorded by Mercy Me as we planned Daniel memorial service, I Can Only Imagine has become sort of my theme song in my grief.  I just listened to it in my car on the way back from lunch and, as usual, the words brought me to tears as I wondered what it will be like for me when I die and what it is like now for Daniel. 

By faith, I simply believe that Daniel is in Jesus’ presence right now though I have no clue what that really means or what that is like for him. 
 
I can only imagine . . .

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